Friday last week, I was meeting my boyfriend from work for dinner and the theatre, I hadn’t left the house with time to charge my phone up and was on 5% batt! Not panicking, not panicking… PANICKING! As it was date night, I also didn’t have my macbook ,iPad, notebook, diary or pen! I only had me, myself and my low battery iPhone. I was 30 minutes early and sitting waiting patiently in a coffee shop for Jamie. I ordered a mint tea and I knew if I looked at my iPhone my battery would die and I wouldn’t be able to contact Jamie.
I go to get my notebook and pen out to write a to do list or a blog post or just to do something ANYTHING productive but it dawned on me that I only had me, myself and my low battery iPhone. I literally couldn’t do anything! I just had to sit there and drink my mint tea. I couldn’t scroll through instagram or reply to emails, I couldn’t do anything work related at all. I was forced to sit and be.
Now, being someone who loves meditating, promotes being in the present moment, to slow down and appreciate the little things in life, when it was out of my control and I was forced to do it, I found it so hard. It made me really consider whether I do have enough balance in my life. Am I addicted to my iPhone? Am I obsessed with working?
Doing something you love as a job, that doesn’t even feel like a job and is completely your passion means that there is a fine line between work and life. There’s always something to do, always someone to email, to plan, to think about and when you enjoy it, it can creep into every area of your life…
I’ve found recently, I’m squeezing work or study into every minute of my life that I am not with friends, family or on date night. I schedule time to do my workouts, meditate or have a relaxing bath but this is scheduled and still kind of feels like routine! Work!
When I was forced to sit and drink my tea in a coffee shop and do nothing else, I honestly couldn’t remember the last time I’d done that. When was the last time you were spontaneously just “being”? I felt calm, centred and much more present when I then met Jamie for our date which perhaps I wouldn’t have been if I’d had 100% battery and spent the 30 minutes before frantically replying to emails or write hashtags for an instagram post.
You see, I am not perfect, I am still working to improve myself every single day. You can have the most perfect diet, exercise routine, career and love life but still not be truly grounded and healthy. I am so grateful and blessed that everything in my life is going pretty fabulously but if I’m not regularly taking a step back and removing myself from work then it’s just going whirl by me, in a big whizzy whirlpool of fun exciting life but will I truly be there!?
You’d think I’d make a goal now and say I’m going to aim to sit and be present in a coffee shop with a tea every single week for 30 minutes but I’m not going to. Goals are work! I’m not working! 😉 I’m going to do more “being”!
Love, Lottie x