I’m craving a little less digital interaction and a little more human interaction.
I’m taking some time off from tomorrow, just a week but I’ve not gone a whole week without putting a photo on Instagram for 2 and a half years, I’ve rarely gone a day!
So many lovely people have said to me recently your career is so amazing and your doing so well and have come so far and I forget sometimes how far I really have come since I became fearless of giving up on my life plan of being a dancer and started to focus on making me and more people around me healthier and happier.
Life in London is fast paced and you can do 100 amazing things in one week and forget them by the next!
I love love love what I do and by doing what I love I hope that I inspire and awaken others to do the same but you have to remember that even if you love your job, it’s only part of who you are. Yes I’m a Pilates instructor, health coach and lifestyle blogger but I’m also a best friend, a girlfriend, a daughter, a sister, a cousin, I’m someone who loves dancing till 3am, reading trashy magazines, playing cards, being silly, eating cake, shopping, sunbathing, I love making collages, learning about history and playing games like articulate which I only do at Christmas- why!
I’m more than my job and I’m more than my to do list. Yes I want to be successful and grow and develop and inspire but I also want to have a life outside of that. I feel guilty for saying that and I feel guilty for most things.
I’m a perfectionist in the sense that I want everything in my life to be perfect but life is for living. We need to stop aiming for perfection and start living. I’m the only one putting the expectations on myself to post every day, to constantly create content, to constantly be thinking what can I do today to better myself, to improve myself, my work, my life.
It’s time I started walking my talk and do you know what I just need a week. Is everything I’ve worked so hard for over 3 years going to disappear in a week, is London going to move on and forget about me, is my to do list going to disappear leaving me no direction, is my motivation and creativity going to fade in a week- no.
I know I’m a super hard worker and a ridiculous over thinker! Recently my head just fills so cluttered and full of random junk that’s chipping away at me. I need to delete the junk and declutter! We all deserve to live a joyous happy life full of love and spontaneity and hope and wonder and new experiences and new connections and the chance to be true to ourselves every single day without mind clutter!
Yes we all have to make a living but do not let your own expectations or feelings of guilt stop you from looking at the bigger picture. Do not let a day go by without looking at the bigger picture because each one of those days when our heads are filled with noise and worry and stress and emails and other people’s expectations, those days turn into weeks and years and decades. My hope for me and for you is that we don’t look back and ask ourselves what was that all for!
Start today and take as much time as you need! I am! See you soon.
Love, Lottie x